"Tantra is a wild mother tiger - if you approach her with right motivation, right
intention, and integrity, she'll suckle you at her breast; but if you
come to her in a sloppy way, she'll rip apart your body-mind, eat you
for dinner, and shit out what's left." - Prem Pranama
I have become ripped apart in my spiritual explorations, scattered like puzzle pieces
tossed to and fro as I have experienced some of the most intense, painful and
revealing emotions that have torn at my inner core in tears drawn from places deep
within. [I am grateful.]
I am grateful because the pain has shown me purpose and taught me the serious nature
of following your own path towards spiritual realization.
All tears split, anger given has built me to understand the depths of myself and
the world that surrounds me.
Never feeling content in the structures of a single established religion, the way
of the Tantra continues to teach me a spirituality that holds no limits & knows no
bounds.
Recently, I decided to let go of much of my White Tantra practice on the outside,
greatly internalizing it and seeking color.
As I have explored this new journey, greatly of abandonment of a rigid set
dual system (white and black) I came across an article that brought a humble
realization, an interview with Tantric Master Prem Pranama.
The interview in it's entirety is astounding, a great understanding of tantra
beyond the limited understanding that it has been given reaching deep into
the spectrum of possibility, giving reason to those colors which I had sought
with greater meaning to the Symbols of the Universe and our collective and
personal evolution:
"Light broken open by a prism displays the colors that are always its nature. Its essence is clear light and its nature is to manifest as the colors of the rainbow. Pure awareness is completely transparent like a sheet of glass. But when broken open, it displays the rainbow of colors or flavors that are the substance of manifestation. Pure awareness and the colors of Being are not in opposition or even in anyway two. They are aspects of singleness. So many spiritual paths inherently, though often subtly, negate world, body, and existence. They are always seeking to get elsewhere into the "light"failing to recognize that all is light. Spiritual systems often misinterpret bondage as resulting from being in form rather than from wrong view. Because of this, they wrongly assume that enlightenment means to be abstracted out of form into subtle realms or "pure" awareness. These spiritual systems try tone gate form and dissolve, or return, into the pre-form matrix of pure potentiality. This is possible and that radical act of transcending form is most blissful - but it is not enlightenment. Form and formless are not two; they are a single mystery. These systems are spiritualized forms of the dualistic delusion. Tantra, which in its true form is Advaitic (or non-dual), transcends this limitation. Tantra is wisdom gone wild embracing the totality of whatis.With Tantra you are not getting somewhere; you are just waking upto the true nature of things as they are. The colors inherent in clear light are not other than the light. The display whereby Being presents its limitless mystery is not other than the birthless and deathless pure mystery from which Being comes.." - Prem Pranama
The triangle prism, a representation of our being, male, female pointing to the great mystery
of the infinite.
The white light coming, only to be seen on a background of black, trials and tribulation, growth
and understanding.
The light exiting in vibrant brilliant colors, again, seen clearly in the contrast to the black backing.
All colors necessary, all having a place, purpose.
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I am humbled, I bow before that which has given me this chance to become, to be, to find the healing,
the growth on my own spiritual path.
I know nothing and in that nothingness, everything is illuminated, known and wise; holding a place,
purpose and function.
zs.