Discover the Labors of Love

If I am to adorn a badge, title, or position of permanent fixity to the character that is "I", it is my hope that it be 'light', that source which we all illuminate when given life.

That life, my light: my own being, touching and being touched by others largely in the unthinkable, unspoken, hushed vast tones that stirs,  mixes,  meshes all gradients of all into an interwoven tapestry.
of one. 

In this share of light in the tapestry of interwoven purposes there is no desire to change the will of another,  rather,  there is a pressing desire to open passages,  doorways of perception, to bring about the dharma wheel of invitation on its own free will turning to enter into any of those infinite passages, not only the ones I claim for personal enlightenment.

For me to claim any of the spiritual stirrings and journeys in my own enlightenment as the only way to find light is an egos entitlement,  not the free willed souls enlightenment that is so greatly sought.

Your path is your own to own -  as is mine to mine,   and all paths in all facets in the sands of time.   Let no one take from you, me, us,  this free willed pursuit towards bliss discovering the ultimate price that comes from pursuing the labors of love.


My open doors, a sliver of light awakened in the seat of the souls eyes, this impossible possibility, this is the purpose in my life: To illuminate possibilities in the body, heart and mind individually and collectively.

This is my Labor of Love, for which I have become before you in all of my explorations.

Yet,  even with this great purpose,  this labor found from mountains climbed, valleys transverse, I will be the first to claim I know a single drop in the ocean of consciousness.

~

zs.
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Fateful Destiny

"Never surrender your hopes and dreams to the
fateful limitations others have placed on their
own lives. The vision of your true destiny does
not reside within the blinkered outlook of the
naysayers and the doom prophets. Judge not by
their words, but accept advice based on the
evidence of actual results. Do not be surprised
should you find a complete absence of anything
mystical or miraculous in the manifested reality
of those who are so eager to advise you.
Friends and family who suffer the lack of
abundance, joy, love, fulfillment and
prosperity in their own lives really have no
business imposing their self-limiting
beliefs on your reality experience.” 

- Anthon St. Maarten

Fate is the painting from that which already is, was and has been done; a body, heart, mind where past present and future are one unto themselves, neither created nor destroyed, simply being fate.

Destiny is the the paint brush to give life to that body-reach, love to that heart-beat and wisdom to the mind-think; not changing the destination, but rather giving it meaning, purpose and place as it courses through the veins of the universal consciousness of collective and self realization.

As we allow ourselves the free ability of free flow recognizing the mastership of the craft of consciousness we go through the colors of life embracing something that stretches beyond the canvas that held us with our predestination challenging the definition of the Divine themselves.

It is then, in this unspoken place, where the worlds end and spill off into space that we, in hushed tones and elated screams, we wake up from the dreams as being floating in a space where we find union with the infinite body, the beloved heart and the expanded mind.

In that timeless time to realize all pains, sufferings, joys, bliss, whispers, screams, faith, beliefs as one place, purpose, peace, to help us understand that which is without time, constraint, walls, rules, principles, regulations, authority or lines to confine that which is

Love.

zs.

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The Single Mystery

 "Tantra is a wild mother tiger - if you approach her with right motivation, right
intention, and integrity, she'll suckle you at her breast; but if you
come to her in a sloppy way, she'll rip apart your body-mind, eat you
for dinner, and shit out what's left." - Prem Pranama

I have become ripped apart in my spiritual explorations, scattered like puzzle pieces

tossed to and fro as I have experienced some of the most intense, painful and

revealing emotions that have torn at my inner core in tears drawn from places deep

within.  [I am grateful.]

I am grateful because the pain has shown me purpose and taught me the serious nature
of following your own path towards spiritual realization.

All tears split, anger given has built me to understand the depths of myself and
the world that surrounds me.

Never feeling content in the structures of a single established religion, the way 
of the Tantra continues to teach me a spirituality that holds no limits & knows no 
bounds.

Recently, I decided to let go of much of my White Tantra practice on the outside,
greatly internalizing it and seeking color.

As I have explored this new journey, greatly of abandonment of a rigid set 
dual system (white and black) I came across an article that brought a humble 
realization, an interview with Tantric Master Prem Pranama.

The interview in it's entirety is astounding, a great understanding of tantra
beyond the limited understanding that it has been given reaching deep into
the spectrum of possibility, giving reason to those colors which I had sought

with greater meaning to the Symbols of the Universe and our collective and 
personal evolution:

"Light broken open by a prism displays the colors that are always its nature. Its essence is clear light and its nature is to manifest as the colors of the rainbow. Pure awareness is completely transparent like a sheet of glass. But when broken open, it displays the rainbow of colors or flavors that are the substance of manifestation. Pure awareness and the colors of Being are not in opposition or even in anyway two. They are aspects of singleness. So many spiritual paths inherently, though often subtly, negate world, body, and existence. They are always seeking to get elsewhere into the "light"failing to recognize that all is light.  Spiritual systems often misinterpret bondage as resulting from being in form rather than from wrong view. Because of this, they wrongly assume that enlightenment means to be abstracted out of form into subtle realms or "pure" awareness. These spiritual systems try tone gate form and dissolve, or return, into the pre-form matrix of pure potentiality. This is possible and that radical act of transcending form is most blissful - but it is not enlightenment. Form and formless are not two; they are a single mystery. These systems are spiritualized forms of the dualistic delusion. Tantra, which in its true form is Advaitic (or non-dual), transcends this limitation. Tantra is wisdom gone wild embracing the totality of whatis.With Tantra you are not getting somewhere; you are just waking upto the true nature of things as they are. The colors inherent in clear light are not other than the light. The display whereby Being presents its limitless mystery is not other than the birthless and deathless pure mystery from which Being comes.."  - Prem Pranama

The triangle prism, a representation of our being, male, female pointing to the great mystery
of the infinite.

The white light coming, only to be seen on a background of black, trials and tribulation, growth
and understanding.

The light exiting in vibrant brilliant colors, again, seen clearly in the contrast to the black backing.

All colors necessary, all having a place, purpose.

-

I am humbled, I bow before that which has given me this chance to become, to be, to find the healing,
the growth on my own spiritual path.

I know nothing and in that nothingness, everything is illuminated, known and wise; holding a place,
purpose and function.



zs.

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There Are No Mistakes - Only Lessons Learned.

What if?  Ever take a spin on the multi-verse imaging what could have been and might be if the path taken was different than the one chosen?  To suppose that perhaps another life was meant, that you were sent to take upon?

Perhaps, a longing to be someone else, an admiration of a finger print that never was but might be..

..rather than what is and has become.

When I think about this in it's enormity, this wave consumes me and I simply, must just let go to sublimation knowing that the makers heart holds me in all conditions.

Indeed, the more fears I face, the more darkness I stand against I find myself burning brighter, stronger with more conviction to overcome, to become, to be. 

Not only have I seen this in myself, but in all the walking manifestations of life before me.

It's good to lose control, let go and let life live unfolding life like a map with no particular destination, only a proclamation of infinite explorations.

& in these explorations, wherever they take... in all of this...
in all this, I am grateful. 



zs.

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Resurrect the Jesus Christ, the Buddha within

Jesus Christ is a title, more than a name, a single being.  It's meaning is "the anointed one".

Within every being is the ability to resurrect themselves to a state of redemption,

to take upon the title and become anointed, to walk as the Jesus Christ.

The power to do so is not in a creed, a religious structure or box template but beating in your chest, giving rest to that breath, breathing life.

Buddha is also a title, more than a name, a single being.  It's meaning is "awakened one".

Within every being is the ability to wake from the sleep of suffering, 

to take upon the title and become alive, anew, to walk as the Buddha.

The power to do so is not in a creed, a religious structure or box template but beating in your chest, giving rest to that breath, breathing life.

You are Divine, a frequency of a collective consciousness giving rise to all rays of light, darkness and the beautiful brilliant sunsets of an eternal state.

Do you realize the power of this?  Of you?  Of those around you?

Your heart will set you free, if you allow it.

Nothing you give from the heart will ever be taken, only added to the calculation of a life lived and learned.

It's time to resurrect realization.

We are the Jesus Christ - We are the Buddha.

 

"I belong to the beloved,........................

have seen the two
 ............................. worlds as one and..............................
that one...........................................
..............................call to and know,
first, last, outer, inner,
..............................only that breath breathing
human being."
- rumi

Have you realized your Divinity in all of its glorious colors and variations?




Have you redeemed your heart to discover once again the purpose of your soul?

What are you resurrecting?

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I know my name as it's called

When you are exposed to a last namesake for so long, that namesakes lasting multi-generational epigenetics of stored traumas become your life and reality. 

At a young age, not knowing better, you excuse the trauma and normalize their place in your life.

I am no longer at that young and idealistic age that is able to excuse the unspoken but real traumas of my last namesake. 

I know there are generations of abuse physical,  sexual and mental in the last namesake I was born into, a cave that continues to draw dark shadows that create victim mentalities.  

I no longer wish to draw my fears from the cave from which I was born.

Those shadows of abuse shall lose their power, eventually finding death to the light of hope,  my name as it is called and shall be called:

Zed Sonder

 

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What name do you carry? 

Do you accept the light and dark of that name?

What name shall you be made known?

..and that draws near to that question which presses upon the brightest and darkest of moments:

Who are you?

-

As for me and my healing journey as Zed Sonder, it is a renewed one which recognizes the interconnected nature of all living life and respects it through the body,  heart and mind. 

There are still many shadows to cast away, projections of light to trace back to the source but today, those shadows just lessened a little more. 

in healing & in hope, 

Zed Sonder

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Just Add Color

I suppose we can suppose there are chapters to every life lived and given, some more subtle than others. 

Me?  I'd like to deem I burst open new pages with an urgency to seek out what is beneath.

As such, I am drawing my White Tantra Kundalini practice of years inward from clothing worn outward and breathing colors into my life after 4 years of doing very extensive spiritual journeying starting with the Age of Aquarius and landing here, a voyage with hundreds of postings.

Life has taught me spirituality is a vine of many varied paths and I am hoping to ground down simply enjoying life exploring and conquering fears as needed.

I am waiting to see what this all means - it's very new to me to not wear all white, to cover my head and not draw extensively into a meditative mind.

I'd like to see what colors beyond the black and white there are to experience and express.

No doubt, I have explored both worlds quite extensively - the black tantra energy journey in my youth, the white tantra energy journey in my current.

Now, I just want to add colors, places that seem exotic to me reaching beyond what can be right and what can be wrong, to simply being.

I have a new song to be written, a new journey to be taken.
I now will wait for life to let me know where it is I am to go....

zs.

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Story

More stations, deviations, contemplations that have no conclusive end
So I walk back to see if there ever was a begin
To see if anything was ever plugged in
Benign it feels strained, pained, drained to the dripping drop
What was the reality of everything I was taught?
Who am I?
What is this?
What is needed to grow?
Which way shall this flow?
I smash the radio cause the stations don't seem to conclude
The words, they elude.
Words, words, words.
Words are finite vines versed and designed to come to an end in fables and myths.
You me, us, we, are an Infinite Divine.
Then what shall we do, take from all these vines that wrap me and you?
Perhaps, perchance, the infinite eternal illuminated fruits that value each vine?

This is a story.

All is a story.

This is a story.

All is a story.

Factful fiction more than words written, spoken verses given, there is still a hope that there is a condition for the individual to realize third eyes, unspoken truths, unwritten words, illumination.

Keys dangle just out of reach.  They are for those who have become taut to teach.
Salivate at salvation, Pavlov's dog in damnation, I know no master but the one within.

Condition critical, blood shot eyes, days cascade into nights.

My heaven hell, yin/yang it all comes back to the place that it is all the same.

This is a story.

All is a story.

We are all travelers here headed to the same place -
In these travels may love be the value, face to learned from the free wheel of infinite possibilities of the endless story.

This is a story.

All is a story.

Words. Words. Words.

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White Tantra: Energy Movement for the Sacred Sexual Soul

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a life lived

infinite beings in finite bodies cry infant wet tears torn to bare that is born worn from visions shattered scattered into the winds dreams deemed tares of what ifs could haves may beens bent around latched door conundrums  the key is not the expectation rather the realization that what was what is and will be shall be symbols of the story  book ends to to ends begin to begin to give definition to the repeating chorus that challenges to explore us asking once again the same questions answered in each life procession  utterances in confession that our bodies are not in our possession but rather a position to condition the meaning in suffering the purpose in pain and the long definition that life lived can only begin to explain.

zs.

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